Kidney patients 4 DIALYSIS DIARY


DIALYSIS DIARY


Maybe my ward nurse resents her responsibilities

Knowing that she must tick the box that says she saved my life again and through the rigmarole of X equals Y and for blue collar pay day

 

When the cleaner taps my bed a little too authoritatively to wake me for my brekky like she too resents the lifetime she has spent serving the infirm who seem to slither like worms sparing no glory for her story 

 

And all those classics of Edwardian mental wards, sadistic care workers, bullying and murderous nurses seem far too close to reality

actively tangible and rubber stamped in internet chat rooms 

 

What the hell am I supposed to believe when I have to pray for peace

When all we ever seek is relief

and I have to ask that sentence with the prefix 'what the hell'?.





 

 

 

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